Hmm, I don't remember what I did saturday. I think we went to Sams and stocked up on candy for the BBBox we're sending. Oh and my dad and my sis went on their practive driving while my mom, brother, and I went shopping. We got out of the store and my dad and sister basically reparked out white car to the other end of the parking lot, and parked the black car in its place. I knew we didnt bring my car to the store so I assumed my dad and sis were there, but then the white car was missing. I was like wth?Then I saw it across the lot, and my mom was puzzled. I saw my dad and sister duck hiding from us and I pointed them out...they started laughing. It was pretty funny. My sister told me how the reparked the car like 3 times trying to hide the car but other cars kept moving and leaving. I bet the people monitoring the cameras at the parking lot were confused...hehe. Oh and I cleaned out my car (my dad, brother and sister managed to trash it while I was away at school), and my sister amazingly washed it. I cleaned the yard.

Sunday, my sis and I went to church. We sat on the left side for the first time. My parents both had work, and my brother was playing video games and watching Tech TV. My mom came home for lunch I think and I dun remember anything else. I cooked sinanag (fried rice). Oh I watched Notting Hill =). and I think I ate halo-halo

Monday, I was awoken by my sister to drive her to school since my dad was essentially too tired after my brother was late for the school bus and my dad had to drive him. I don't remember what else I did that day. I think we ate tacos and burritos =).

Tuesday was my mom's day off. She took my sis to school since her car was blocking mine. We went to the base and bought Monsters Inc. (very funny =) I got my RLR. We later went to Walmart cause my brother wanted yet another video game. I bought canvas and so did my mom. We also went to this other video game store next door, I think its called FuncoLand. Anyway, my brother bought Yugi-oh cards (go figure after Pokemon which he treasured oh so much).

Wednesday, I woke up at 8:30 and checked to see my grades. No such luck. I then saw Ij online and decided to drop a line. We chatted for a while then ended. I went searching and arranging my painting supplies and my mom helped me outI found my model and got set up and started painting again after so many years. By lunch I was interrupted and we went to the base to get my military renewed (so much head aches yet again...my dad got frustraited with me simply because he doesn't understand where I am comming from and no, its not a "you just fon't understand" type teenager deal, it's more of a you can't understand since you don't know deal).

I soon brushed it off building yet another massive tumor at the back of my head. I went to the back yard and continued painting. I stopped till it got chilly out side and our dog Chu choo got in and my dad fed her some roast beef. My mom was making Ukoy (basag-ulo), while I ate Miswa and two burritos =P. Yes I was hungry after all that painting.

Now, I had a bunch of very retarded dreams. One was about this guy at ucla that I became good friends with. I moved out of the place where we used to live (some kind of apt or something) and I moved on with my life away from everyone else. The next day while I was setting up my room, and he he pops his head in and essentially came to surprise me. I was shocked and happy I guess. He suddenly decided to move later that evening on the day of my move. He told me some twisted reason that basically directed his move. Like it was fate or something. I checked outside and saw the blue shuttle. He takes me out of my room and I see he lives next door. In short, we are neighbors. Kinda weird. I was happy kinda, but I didn't know what to think of that whole situation. Ok, so basically that was my week. Pretty basic and boring, but ok I guess.

Oh darn, I forgot to mention that my friends from hs all emailed me at the same time after me not checking my email for about 2 days. Glecy rose from the dead...she's teaching now. Onnie is mad cause I haven't written him in a few days (sorry miyt). Kc, my bestest friend is doing great (I am happy for you =), and Paulz is up with the whole greek life. Guess dats it. Oh and Crip, be nice to Ice. Eric got Yugi oh cards and Cris, get better ok? Now, back to my painting. don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[9/12/2002 11:52:05 PM | shine]

My final is OVER and Summer 2002 is officially OVER for me. I finished my final today at 3:00pm. All I can say is FINAL SUCKS LEMONS! Yes, it was that sucky! After the whole messy ordeal, I went ot Westwood to buy books and cookies at Didi Reese (yummy cookies!). I then went to Ackerman to buy my other books after going to Textbooks plus next to Mrs. Fields. I realized I left my frikkin keys to the apt, so I just hoped that by the time I get back, someone would be home. So I search for my book and this guy comes up to me and tries to help me out. In short, there was nothing he could do anyway, but he kept on buggin me and I am guessing (cause I am very dense and naive) that he was trying to ask me out (I hope I was wrong) but he seemed very persistent and he wasn't exactly my type. That inncident made me wonder about the various pick up lines guys use to get chicks. Then it made me think how lame that was and how many times I shot down guys who tried to ask me out and I wasn't even aware of it (daym I need to get with the program and learn to become less dense). Hey, it's not my fault I didn't know!

Anyway, I had a pretty great week aside from studying my brain till all its cells got fried comming home fruitless...I hope NOT. I'm going home in a few hours. My dad just called and is picking me up tomorrow morning.

Anyway, I had a pretty great week aside from studying my brain till all its cells got fried comming home fruitless...I hope NOT. I'm going home in a few hours. My dad just called and is picking me up tomorrow morning.

We finally got a fourth roomie Hannah. She is Korean and she's on the golf team. She's pretty tan, almost Hawaiian. Hmmm, oh yeah I watched My Best Friend's Wedding and Now and Then...I think it was Sunday night. Brought back so many memories I could go on and on, but I didn't write them down at the time, and I am so tired so I won't go into detail. I did love the feeling. I miss my childhood. I miss being 15 =(.

Yesterday we had a vigil for Sept 11th held in Royce quad. at 12nn. It was a quiet solemn affair with the chancellor Carnesdale and the UCLA brass quintet playing a few pieces. I wasn't expecting so many people, but I got to campus at 11am and forgot my camera. I was headed for Powell to study, and stayed till 11:50am debaiting whether to get the camera or not. I eventually studied till that time then rushed out the library to see the ceremony. The Vigil was basically about 300-400 people and a 15 min speech by the chancellor and about 3-5 songs by the quintet. After the massive crowed at noon basking in the sun around the fountain and infront of Powell, in the grass and infront of Royce. I will admit. I tried to push the date out of my mind, but as the day came like any other day. It was like last year. A bright and sunny and happy day. A guy's truck was even nearly towed (hehe). As I walked to campus, I saw the Daily Bruin ( hasn't shown itself in two weeks) with a special issue for Sept 11th. It gave me an eerie feeling. I felt so vulnerable ans so unsafe, and so scared, that anything, anyone, anywhere, could strike and kill all that peace has stood for.

Needless to say, as the chancellor spoke about the lives that were lost, and the day that America was brought to its most vulnerable state, I cried. I tried to compose myself and continued to study, only to come back to the apt to have an engaging conversation with my roomie about all the terror and saddness that hit us during the attack last year, and how beautiful life truly is and how good and wonderful the miracles of life are.

Today, President Bush talked with the United Nations about Iran and the fall of terrorism. Personally, I feel that he has done all he can in his most right to bring the world to justice and down on all the evils the world is comming to. As I watch the news and the debates heat up, I am so terrified. It hits me so hard to see all the violence that I was once nearly desensitised by it all. But now as I look at it over, the violence is so close to home, and so terrifying, it's right here, and even the United States, a country once untouched, has been infultrated by enemy hands.There is no longer a safe place in the world. If the US can be taken down, anyone can. This terrifies me, and I am scared for the world. I have a very very scared feeling that a large scale war is brewing very very soon, and many will persish. I can feel a World War 3...and it is in this case, I seriously hope I am wrong. Life is so precious, I can not imagine how something so evil could exist in this world. I could not imagine how severe and how horrible any one person could be until this week. All the villans in the movies do no justice to the real villans in this world. They are the true evils of the society, and somehow, we must bring all this reign of terror to the ground.

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[9/5/2002 6:23:50 AM | shine]

I just finished watching American Idol (Joanna got me into it). Anyway, Kelly won (yey!). I am glad she did. Well, today wasn't that bad. The day got cooler. I basically was in the library from 12:30-3:30 and slept half the time. OMG I was so tired and the reading was so droll I litterally couldn't keep my eyes open to focus. So I gave in and slept for about half an hour.

Yesterday Rahil and I rearranged the room. Now we have more space =) and I can finally decorate the place a little bit better. Hmmm, what else. Oh and my friend's site is finally up...now there will be many more weird things to see. Um, I don't really remember much, but I do know I need to sleep more, and sleep eariler and wake up earlier. This second half of the quarter is not as easy to catch. Hopefully the heat goes away so I will be able to concentrate more. I know I can do it! (you can do it shine! hehe). Oh and I was talking to my friend last night. His gf, my friend, joined a sorority. Basically we really didn't like her joining, but we really couldn't do anything about it. Basically, she e-mailed me and told me about the hazing ritual and I didn't want to come off as bitchy so I let her know I was dissappointed, but supportive if she believes what she did is for a good cause.

According the weather forcast, it may rain tomorrow. There have been a couple of fires around Cali, so I hope the rain helps out. It's been really hot all week. We just had a heat wave all of a sudden. Luckily Powell is always cold. it just gets really weird when its that cold and you are wearing a sweater, then you exit and you have to take it off. Anyway, I guess I should get goin. I am tired and I am thinking of going to bed early. Rahil went home and is comming back tomorrow afternoon. So I have the room to myself. Gopal might come tomorrow to get the Psi Chi papers and a prospective roomie is gonna be here at about 4pm. I hope I dont forget. Well I guess that's it. See y'all. bye! =)

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[9/4/2002 9:05:44 AM | shine]

Ok, I have been putting this thing off since I got back from home on Labor Day. I had a kewl week full of weird dreams. On Friday, I gave Rahil the keys to the apt and my dad and brother picked me up at about 1:20pm. It was the beginning of a very sad hear wave. Luckily Ox wasn't as hot as LA.

After settling my stuff in and eating (I was so hungry), my brother began playing FFX...again got a new aeon. I began to doze off since I was so tired from everything, and I was major sleep deprived. I also helped my friend move his stuff to his new apt. Luckily I came along cause one of the girls who was moving out had her bf there with her and he was scary...hah. He could of beat up my friend. He said he wasn't scared (hah...well I was scared for him...the guy was in his boxers!). Anywho, I got so sleepy so I took a nap (yah can you believe I actually went to sleep at 4:30pm-6:00pm. How weird huh? I never sleep in the afternoon! Well, I finally open the RE dvd my mom bought. My brother was too lame to watch it by himslef! So i watched it again. Somehow it was more fulfilling watchin it in the theatre with Cris (I remember the walk back. Like silent hill right Cris?..hah!).

Next day, or maybe it was when I took that nap, I had a very strange dream. I was in a really nice mansion, and I had a different family. I was supposedly with a guy whom everybody loved and adored. He was a sweetheart basically. For some reason, un identified men came and knocked at our door, and my boyfriend came out to greet them. Everyone in the scene was wearing white, even our mansion type house. The men were wearing white long sleeves with black slacks. two were in a jag and the other was out on our porch, as my boyfriend came out to hug the guy (supposedly he was a good friend) the man pulled out a gun and shot my boyfriend directly on his stomach three times and he shot him self in tears. The other men drove away, and I ran to my man and put him in my arms and began to cry while hugging his lifeless body. I could feel that whomever that was I felt the pain of loss, even in my dream. As I woke up, I could sense I was crying and felt like a couldnt breathe because of my crying. Oddly enough, even though the dream made no sense at all, I felt a sense of calm and even happiness knowing I had someone, even if they did die. One major thing is, I have never seen a mansion like the one my dream was set in. I do not know anyone in the dream, and I have never seen anyone die in my dream. Nothing has ever been that symbolic. How weird huh?

After that, I had two other dreams, but I don't remember them. On Saturday I went to Camarillo and went shopping =). Daym traffic was bad. Sunday we went to church...not late because I drove! And father Angel read the same gospel last week, which was weird. We went to the commissary and then bought some fortune plants down Ventura Blvd. Then we went home and my mom cooked some luglog and Sinigang giniling since my relatives were comming over from Fontana. They finally came at 3:00pm cause of traffic and I made them some halo-halo =) (for those of you scratching your heads, thats a slushie type drink made of shaved ice, milk, and sweetended/candied fruits, beans, and jellies...yes boba too). I also gave our dog a bath (she sheds like there is no tomorrow) and played with my nephew (my cousin's son). While my other cousin and my brother were attacking each other on ps2 (Gundam Wing, Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 3, Metal Gear Solid).

Oh and my sister and I went out to get some stuff and we checked out some open houses close to out neighborhood (hey, I like lookin through those to get ideas for my room =P) and then later we all went to the base to go shopping. Me and Sheryl went to get Krispie Kreme and I thought I left my card (it was barried in my wallet covered in receipts) so I ended up buying only a dozen assorted. Later that evening I got my relatives and parents to watch RE...the whole thing (hehe), while I cleaned up in the kitchen. I was gettin tired and I went to bed at about 2. I think they left around then also.

Next day, Labor Day, my brother and I went to Office Max, then Best Buy, and this guy wouldn't leave me alone. I am pretty naiive when it comes to those kinds of things, but I am guessing he was hitting on me. My brother noticed. He was kinda cute too =P Blonde guy with dark brown eyes...hehe. Not my usual type though. Anyway, I broke free from him cause it felt awkward. He couldn't help me anyhow since I know what I wanted, and they didn't have it. We then went to WalMart and I got a dry erase calendar since no 2002 ones were left ( geez why dont they just put those one sale like 90% off???? I would buy it!). So we get home and head off for LA. I beat my brother at guess who on the way here, and it was frikkin hot...I think 90-95 deg F.

I got so hot that I took a shower and wanted to take anotherone again. I waited till 230 to leave only to find that Powell (the only decent cool air conditioned place I can rest) was frikkin closed! So, in an attempt to outdue a heatstroke, I head for the Sculpture Garden in hopes of it being cooler there (not much luck). I darked 3 shades at least! I look totally pinoy...finally (yet today this chick told me she thought I was Chinese)!. I get my stuff done eventually, and I sweat like roast. I wait till the sun drops and the heat dies off a little before I head for home. It turns 5, so I walk. Alas, its still daym hot and the apt isn't any cooler even as the sun disappears. My roomie comes back with her bf, and my other roomie comes back at about 10:30pm. We talk and try and figure out how to hide the turtles and fish from the manager. I was almost as worried as she was. Man, she is hyper. But she is a very sweet person. Anyway, I will continue this thing tomorrow. I am so tired. Luckily I have no class tomorrow so I can catch up telling about my boring day today my up comming final (ugh) plus I am still on the daym wait list!!! Whatever...bye y'all.

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[8/27/2002 1:39:33 AM | shine]

So much has happened the past week. On Tues, Teresa and I took Jo to the airport and I forgot to take the present with me =\. Oh wells. Teresa cut up Jo's cantelope...and I ate it all...hehe. Thursday we had our midterm for Psych 129D Personality. I studied my @$$ from Tuesday till Thurs mornin. I hope I got an A. Hmmm oh then I went home for the weekend. My mom bought Lord of the Rings, so I watched it on my laptop from 11:30pm till the wee hours. It was pretty good. We also went to my aunt's WHITE house ;) to pick up some fish and drop off a cutting boards...don't ask me why.

I got an e-mail from Jo also. Apparently she has no internet access at home. So she called the apt and e-mailed me =). Friday, I went to the dentist for my check up. Got my wisdom tooth plugged before damage gets worse. Stupid widom tooth!. Oh and my cousin came over and we went to Pt. Mugu and played air hockey and ping pong at the Surf Net. We also bugged my mom at her work and hung out at her office...hehe. Stupid Surf Net blocked the pool area cause they were gonna have a tournament so we couldn't play. It was kewl though. Later we hung out at my house and played FFX ...well he did and my sibs. My cousin got the Reanimation cd of Linkin park. It was pretty kewl. He asked me to draw the anime on the remix video of pts of authority.And he made me his special honeydew boba...mmmm =P Later that evening I had to deal with AOL crap cause something stupid happened to my brother's sn and it was spinned off to another account. Anywho, I got it done. Oh and we also checked out our neighbor's house. I got to carry Auntie Jasmine's baby Shannel (like the parfume but with an SH). She was such a sweet heart. A five month old baby is soooo cute! She was a very pretty baby and she liked me =). Aunite said cause she likes girls with long hair...hehe. Shannel's hair is fluffy too. Dang, I miss little babies!

Hmmm, that day my mom, sibs and I watched also watched MIB II @ Hueneme later that evening. They also watched Lilo and Stitch...or parts of it. It wasn't that bad. I also got some of my stuff for my apt.

Sunday, we went to church and we weren't late =). Then we went to Camarillo Outlet and got some stuff. The place was under attack by stupid aphids. Anyway, other than that, it was a great day. Nice and sunny. I got a body legth pillow and some other stuff. My sister got her back pack. I think I'm gonna go back this weekend cause they're gonna have a major sale over the labor day weekend. Oh and my cousin and my aunt came over with some Krispie Kreme. My uncle closed a deal for my other cousin's car. They bought a silver camry 2003 in Thousand Oaks. Lets see, oh and I bought curtain for my apt. Then my brother and I played his new game...a Gundam fighting game. He initially kicked my @$$ since I didn't know how to work the controls, then I kicked his and vice versa...hehe. It was kewl.

Monday, I woke up and watched some techTV...that channel rox...hehe. then we ate lunch and headed off to LA. I got to the apt and fixed my stuff then headed off to do my reading for my class. I got done by 7:45pm and ate din din. I got invaded by potential apt hunters and I put up my curtains with my roomies' help...kinda, while another potential roomie flaked on an appt...well she cancelled last minute. My Cris, on the other hand created an impecable drawing of a desk to show me what he got. He's gonna move away to West LA soon =( but its kewl cause he won't get sick of seeing me all the time anymore. I am also gonna take some pix of Royce quad and the old buildings tomorrow after or before class. I guess that's about it. Oh and a person I thought I would never hear from again IMMed me out of the blue...WILL!!! Same as usual =) Hasn't changed a bit. Maybe a little better in conversation skills and typing ;). Well he went running half an hour ago. I know it's late, but it's Will. Anyway, guess that was my weekend.

don't forget to...

touch the sun

[8/19/2002 11:22:48 PM | shine]

[currently listening to:] I love you for sentimental reasons - Nat King Cole *sigh*
[mood:] sad, bored, lonely, depressed, anxious
[interesting sight:] three fire trucks in front of my apt building at 8pm this evening
[tv program watched:] meet the parents...I think
[currently speaking to:] vin and cris

[8/19/2002 12:40:23 PM | shine]

Ok so today Jo is leaving for San Francisco. The room is all empty and Teresa is going to take her to the airport at about 1:15pm or so. Her flight is at 3pm not am...as I mistakenly typed. Anywho, I just got her present wrapped. Man I couldn't do it with her around! She just left to finish things up on campus. Teresa went to take her midterm, and Yumi went to class. This place is going to be so quiet when Jo leaves. No more loud person playing collapse...hehe. And no more person to bicker with. We are very different!!! even though we had the same results for all of the 10 personality tests we took. That is sheer coincidence!

Well, it's a really gloomy day. Definitely the end of summer. Now that Jo is gone, I can finally concentrate on my midterm, which is a good thing. I hope I get all of it in my head by Thursday. I hope Jo has a good time at home too. I wonder what she plans to do in SD. Oh well. Hopefully we will keep in touch. I may even bug her to go to the San Diego Fietsa in May if she's not busy. Ah wells. Another goodbye I have to deal with. Which always sux. It took me a while to get used to leaving home and comming back. Leaving home felt weird everytime I left.

Now that I think about it, I think it's because I find trouble mixing my two worlds together and clashing. My home life, school life, friends life, and so forth. It gets very strange seeing them collide. And when I have to say goodbye to the other, it makes me sad. Geez I am so emotional it's very annoying. I just hope our new roomie will be nice and I hope I get along with Rahil. Otherwise it will be kinda freaky seeing her all the time everyweek in the apt and during meetings...ugh. Well, I shouldn't be pessimistic. Think positive Shine! You can do it...hehe. OK I guess I will stop here and get back a little later

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[8/18/2002 8:47:43 AM | shine]

I had a very interesting day today. First off, woke up only to find that my roomie and her no good $%@^%$ whatever person slept over. After which, Jo and I decided to go to Utrecht in Santa Monica. I actually got in the car with her driving (very brave of me I know). On the way there down Westwood Blvd. she nearly smashed into a car at a 4 way cause the stupif car on the left went and it was our right of way and Jo, being the very "good" driver she is, kept on going cause it was her right of way not noticing the car wasn't stopping either. I had to "raise" my voice to let her know she was going to hit the car. Luckily she stopped and since she was going slow anyway, it wasn't that bad. We made it to Utrecht and she had to parallel park...it took forever. She seriously needs to take driving lessons! I wonder who was the insane person that gave her her license (no offense Jojo =P)!

So we finally got the car parked after 10 mins. We go into Utrecht and I was so happy to be in there with all the kewl stuff. I bought a palette knife and she bought a sketch pad. We then went across the street to The Art Store. They had a nice sale of oil paint and some other very kewl stuff. They had so much nice stuff over there it was like my heaven! They had all the papers and canvases and paints and art supplies and easels and boards and oh well it was just very kewl. I bought 3 huge oil paints Cadmium red, Canary Yellow and Cobalt blue. The primaries basically. I already have Titanium white. Oh and I bought Linseed Oil at Utrecht. Then I also got photo corners there too. The paints were 40% off. So they were about less than 8 bux =) I had to get them! Jo bought some water color and more sketch pads which were on sale. We then went to the other side and looked to find out what Goodwill looks like and we quickly left. The stuff were all expensive for used items! We then returned her sketch pad from Utrecht cause it was cheaper at The Art Store for more pads. Then we went home and dropped off the supplies and ate at Mr. Noodle. Jojo's car was makin funny noises and squeaking and shivering or something so we decided not to ride it. It smelled like burnt rubber...which was scary...hehe.

At Mr. Noodle (next to the cookie place) we got served by very annoying waitress who watched our every bite (well every other bite) and this couple to the right was funny lookin. There was a sleezy looking greasy haired middle aged man with a young fairly attractive woman. He was on his cell and I over heard him say something like "honey I'm going to come home late tonight and I am going to turn off my phone ok? So don't wait up for me" and something like "Who is the princess of the house?" Yes, it does sound very stupid I know. Then, according to my very observant companion, she hear him tell the woman he was with jokingly that she should give him a well...(crude remark insert here)...so I was guessing the woman he was with was not his wife, nor a mere friend. According to Jo she was probably a "poor girl who was down on her luck" aka a high priced hooker or a very sad girl who needed some cash. It reminded us of the movie we just watched "Requiem for a dream" A very dark artsy film with Marlon Wayans in a serious dramatic role...but not leading. Accompanied by 3 other very good veteran actors Rated NC-17.

After we calculated the tip, and my coconut juice spill dried, we got to go boxes and headed off for campus. I nearly forgot. On our way there past the Medical Plaza, we saw a dead pigeon run over on the street...all that was left was a flat ball of fluff. This was Jo's reaction "ahhhhhhhhh!" heheh. I was like "What now?" and then I saw it. The poor thing. Oh well. I guess it wasn't very smart.

After passing the UCLA Medical Plaza, The NeuroPsyciatric Institute and the UCLA Police dept and the Strathmore building, Jo lead me to the short cut into Boelter. We met up with her friend and went through South Campus and walked past Mathematical Sciences, Powell, and Haines, Past (ugh I can hear M*A*S*H* in the next apt right now...how depressing, anywho, um where was I? Oh yes) Boelter then we got to the Murphy Sculputre Garden.

We went to the sculpture garden and picked out the naked lady, I sharpened some pencils, sat down, and began sketching. Several people came passing by and even some groups of families and touring tourists. Many of which came to look at out work and compliment them (I don't know how serious they are about saying they were nice, but it's ok). After one long sketch from me, and three renditions by Jo (in blue soft pastels and red undertones) we moved to another naked lady scultpure. Jo thought it was sucky so we went the the next one. The last sculputre we did was a very um, feminine and yet buff lady. She had very exaggerated features of the female body. She had a huge huge @$$ and a tiny waist and huge boobs. We had no place to sit so we went behind it and all I could see was huge @$$ so that's what I did. Jo told me to use pastels so I can't erase. So I did. I used green shades. I didn't realize it looked like the incredible hulk until my cousin mentioned it to me (hehe). I called it an asparagus =D. It came out decent I think. There were even two artists we came over and thought we were artists and looked at our work and gave us tips...hehe. It was kewl. We finally finished up after a while. I used alot of Jo's pastels after not using pastels since I was in the 2nd grade.

We finally got back to the apt and Yumi was home. She saw our art work and she said that on mine, her but looks so real you couls squeeze them...hehe. Well, we ate our chinese take out and then I scanned my art. All of a sudden Michi IMs me so I show him my naked lady...he says he has seen better porn (whatever! =P) and then I talked to my cousin. I let Cris watch speed 2 so he hasn't seen my art yet. I wonder what he would think?

Anyway, I talked to my cousin and found out my cousin in SD Rox, is getting a new house! I'm gonna miss their old house. So many childhood memories. All really good ones too =( Oh well. They deserve a new house though. So I am happy for them. Sux they got a gated house though. That's really annoying. Hmm oh and Did I mention Jo jo is leaving on Monday at 12pm? Her flight is @3am...I'm gonna be so lonely ='( and sad. My friend is leaving me! Well, we had a great two months. I met someone who is crazier than me. Now I have to get back in the study for midterms mode and I still have to get her a present! Geez, what to get someone who already has everything??? *sigh* Oh well, now I gotta go. Jo went out with Tomas and I am noting our last day out =( At least I got some shots of the campus and Jo while we were on our way back to campus. She was saying we could sketch pillars next to Powell, but that will never happen anymore since she is leaving =( man oh man. I feel so sad. Plus she i going to San Diego! I guess I will visit her when we go to the Fiesta in May. Ok must go now.

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[8/17/2002 12:42:52 AM | shine]

Parents came over this mornin. Gots me some pepe. Went to Powell, the Sculpture garden and helped Jo pack =\...leavin Monday =(. Oh and Ducky died this mornin...poor poor ducky...RIP.

On a lighter note, Crazy's radio is funny. My cuz and this chick at the Boba shop here in Westwood spread the word. I gots me a shout out and he likes UCLA. He sounds cute btw...hehe. Check it out...here's the plug:
Go into your winamp and press ctrl-L and paste in this ip 209.115.42.50:5002 Wait for it to load and listen in!
He plays today's popular styles such as Trance, Hip-Hop, and R&B! He also plays funny clips/songs as well to keep you laughing and entertained. His love for the LAMBADA LOVE SONG is my favorite! =) Listen in for great music, great laughs, and much more!!
SUPPORT CRAZI AND SPREAD THE WORD! This biznatch is paying for this crap! So you better help! =P

Oh and this is my description of a car I should own, but apparently the pic doesn't work so yeah.

Crap, you drive an M3?!? Can I be your friend? You enjoy luxury
and performance, and have the cash to back it up. Scratched
the car? Just get a new one!

Find out which car you drive!

don't forget to...

touch the sun


"and it makes you wonder how it would be

if people just stopped and suddenly understood"

-shine

P.S.

Here is another description I got from this site funstun.com. Exactly the same as Jo's

Sherymer, this is what the foods you eat say about you: You are friendly and easygoing. People feel comfortable around you so it is not a surprise that many friends surround you. You have high self-esteem and will not let anyone get you down.

You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.

You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

[8/14/2002 2:02:38 AM | shine]

It was Pauline's birthday a few hours ago. I sent her an e-mail and I owe her a card. She is 21. Happy birthday kiddo!

The low down on my day. It was pretty good. Aside from the rude awakening by our manager accusing us of parking in a no parking zone. I had class today and afterwards I did my reading for the next lecture. We are going to have our midterm next week and I am glad I kept up with the reading. I just hope I do well in the class. I am so scared.

After reading the three assigned for thurs in the Powell reading room, I went home only to find no one! Apparently, my two roomies went to Ross while my other roomie was studyin as usual. So I, being the one home first nearly all the time, made sinigang. My one roomie came back and we watched American Idol while I was cookin. Then the other two came back. My one shopaholic roomie bougth two pairs of shoes...yet again! Btw, while I was reading in Powell, I realized she was leaving and it made me feel very sad. I couldn't even concetrate on what I was reading.

Today we basically watched American Idol and I ate my sinigang while chatting with my friend and cousin. My roomie said I don't talk to her anymore. Well, it's not my fault she is usually online too or cooking. But anyway, I am feeling sad she is going. My dental appt is set for sat and I have a midterm next week and my roomie is leaving (I thought sat). So I decided to resched my appt. and I called my nanay to tell her. Hopefully she can. I want to be here when my roomie leaves.

After my debate with my cousin about his anti-Catholicism beliefs, my roomie and I decided to sit and sketch. She can paint very well btw. She set up a lotion bottle and my perfume bottle and shed light on it with my lamp. She handed me her scratch paper and a 2B pencil (that is the lead softness and darkness...that is the normal lead darkness of regular pencils). We sketched away. She used vines (charcoal) and I used pencil. We had drastically different approaches and looks to the same objects. My other roomie saw the difference when she came in to see what we did. Anyway, I am satisfied I guess, but I do need to work on my shading. My art roomie darkened the shading of my lotion bottle. She couldn't resist.

Anyway, I am trying to forget about my wait listed classes and the fact that my roomie is leaving very soon and that we still need another roomie. I know everything will turn out fine in the end. All I have to do it keep faith and work hard. I guess I should sleep now. So tired. me and Jojo got so much incommon ;). Bye y'all.


don't forget to...

touch the sun


"and it makes you wonder how it would be

if people just stopped and suddenly understood"

-shine

[8/12/2002 11:29:30 PM | shine]

Look at what I got =)

Strawberry: 30/100 Pear: 40/100 Banana: 60/100 Tomato: 30/100 Lemon: 0/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron!

[8/7/2002 8:21:11 PM | shine]

Here's what Sheryl got...hahaha it's so funny =)

What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com / <º>

[8/7/2002 8:10:20 PM | shine]

Check out what I got...mwahaha! =P

What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com / <º>

[8/5/2002 11:41:41 PM | shine]

The beginning of the week and Summer Session A here at UCLA. This time I have 129D Personality with Okami--which ironically was also Cris's professor in Human Sexuality which I didn't care to have because of his narrowmindedness and 100% final.

I began today finishing up what I started last night. I sat down and watched The God Father III. It was a finishing up of the trillogy, and now I know why people call it a masterpiece. Al Pacino, Marlon Brando, Robert De Niro, Andy Garcia...all superb actors in their own right.

I slept at 4am watching the extras on the DVD, and I wasn't even sleepy. I went to bed cause I knew I had to. Otherwise, I would have stayed up. When I woke today, I finished watching the extras on the DVD. Then I watched American Beauty. It wasn't really what I expected. I actually expected a different tone of the movie, but it was very well put together. I had hoped for more, but I suppose the way it ended was at it's own right. Thora Birch, a girl I grew up watching since her debut in All I want for Christmas, has gotten older and yet still looks exactly thesame. Mena Suvari is very beautiful as well, but I think her abilities as an actress wasn't challenged enough from that role. Wes Bentley did an excellent job portraying his role. I guess the character in which he played also helped. People need to look more into people like Ricky(Wes Bentley) in American Beauty and Michael Corleone (Al Pacino) in The God Father trillogy. Both characters have intense strength and mystery, and complex thought. Both are beautiful in their own way and an inexplainable compassion and kindless dispite their disfucntionality and hidden vulnerability.

The other day, I recieved an e-mail from one of my once best friend's girlfriend. She was compliling a 21 wishes list from all of his close friends. So said what I could and e-mailed her. His birthday is on the 6th...tomorrow.

After watching American Beauty, I began to feel depressed re-thinking, yet again, where my life is headed. All the problems I seem to think I have aren't really problems, and yet they find ways to hurt me and plague my mind.

I went online to see if anything could cheer me up after seeing so many people shot and killed. I have never seen so much blood in one day. I checked my email and found a letter from one of my friends who was coincidentally awake at 4am last night/this morning as I was. He told me that he had recently looked at my entries and felt bad about not reacting to them since he hadn't really looked at them. To me, I make these entries more so just for myself. They are my memories. My way of grieving, and my way of letting go.

It's much easier than keeping a written journal, and I save trees and ink. I don't expect people to care or read what I have to say, so I just basically say what I feel. If you want the truth, all you have to do is read this. I don't lie in my entries cause I have nothing to hide. I figure the world is too caught up with itself to notice me. Why expect people to even listen? That is why I didn't list this site. That is why I don't let everyone know I have one, or if I do, I know they won't bother to check it anyway. For those of you who do, I guess you are just bored individuals who have nothing better to do and love to see someone else's misery aside from your own. Either that or you are sincerely interested in what I have to say. My question is why? There are 6 billion people in the world. Why would I be any more amusing. I have nothing to share but my life, my thoughts, my emotions.

It's so amazing how so many people become interested in what you have to say, if they "believe" you are beautiful. It's amazing how compassionate people can be if they know you are deep rather than shallow.

Sometimes life seems to staire at me in the face, and I wonder what God made me for. What is infact my purpose. He made all of us for a reason. Maybe I am one of his fillers. I really have no idea. Eitherway, the blessings, the beauty, the peace, the silence, it is all a mystery of nature and love. An act that can never be brought into words, because it is felt.

dont forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

[what i am thinking right now :: does my friend really miss me? will my next class suck? will I get an A in 136B? does his girlfriend see me as a threat? does he think of me anymore? am I a bad friend? I feel like crap. does he think I just used him? does my bestfriend really understand that I am busy? when will i be able to send my friends their birthday cards when their birthdays are tomorrow and next tuesday? when will I ever feel real happiness? nothing ever seems to satisfy people. is there nothing viewed as sacred anymore? should I just move on? should I quit psi chi? will I get into gradschool? will i pass the GREs? will I ever make my parents proud of me? will my sister ever learn that anything she does, harms herself and doesn't prove anything? when will my father ever learn to trust me? I am I such an awful person? why can't things just be clear?]

[8/1/2002 12:54:44 AM | shine]

[currently listening to:goo goo dolls]
[last movie seen: The Godfather II on DVD]
[latest class completed: Psych 136B Social Psychology Lab]
[latest grade recieved: 97/100 Psych 136B research paper]
[currently talking to: Marv]
[currently doing: soaking up the "no deadline mode"]
[dreading to do: going to Murphy Hall tomorrow for my FAFSA and buying books, notebooks, and going to class Tuesday =\]
[recent accomplishment on my page:fixed the photo links and updated the news entries =)]


Comming down the years turned over. Angels fall without you there. And I'll go I will lead you home and, all because I'll...I'll become what you became to me...

And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand, when everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am...


don't forget to...
touch the sun


"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

Blogg Entry + last day of Session A!!! (July 31, 2002, Mon 6:50pm)

Below are my two entried in my new Blogg. Since I am too lazy to fix my blogg and make this page it, I just pasted my entry for all to see. I may just end up cut and pasting cause I am just so daym lazy =P.

Today was a half pretty great, half sad. Why? Great cause it was the last day of my 136B class...I survived...and I got an awesome grade on my paper (thanks to Cris for reading it over =D and our presntation is over. Sad cause our presentation sucked, my groupmate who also became my friend, is leaveing for Japan on Tues =( and I have another session starting on Monday! Dammit!. Oh wellz.

Updates on the page, well nothing really. I just fixed the pictures page. Be happy! They work now...man that was annoying...stupid imagestation! It's ok though. Anyway, this then makes me realize that my roomie will soon leave me for SanDiego =(. Man, why do I get so attatched to people? Oh wells. Better to have alot of friends and be sad cause they leave, than be mad at people and be happy you never see them again.

Well, now I can go shopping, do my Psi Chi Album, and watch Austin Powers 3: Goldmember =D.
Kc, if yer reading this...HI =)

don't forget to...
touch the sun

[7/29/2002 9:16:47 AM | shine]

Another day, another weekend gone by. This time I went home. I restocked my apt with food, and I did experience some conflict at home, but it was not what I was expecting.

I was surprised to find that my mom bought me an easel, oil paint, brushes, and other painting tools =). Isn't my mom the greatest? Well I know she is...at least to my eyes. My family is great, it's just that they do have issues sometimes--like most families out there. Occasionally it can get to the point where I just don't want to come home and face their issues. Sounds like any other family right? Well, it wasn't always like this. I used to never really have any problems with them, that is, until I started growing up.

Never the less, I know sooner or later, I will have to face the fact that my father will realize that I am incapable of being the perfect angelic daughter he wants. God knows and everyone else that I have tried to my fullest many time sacrificing my happiness just to win his trust. However, that has yet to fully reveal itself. It seems that my father will never really trust my until the day comes that he can set me up with a guy he absolutely loves and we get married and my husband turns out to be perfect. Until that day arrives, I know I won't be able to talk to him more deeply.

Yes. sad, but true and I will have to face that until then. Depressing huh? Oh wells...I have a paper to turn in so I gotta get goin. Ok, my roomie is awake so I gotta get my booty outta here.
bye 'yallz

don't forget to...
touch the sun

[7/26/2002 1:43:15 PM | shine]

Now what plagues my mind is what my sister and cousin told me last night and the previous day. I hate it when people you know keep secrets from you. It bugs the hell outta me and I just can't stop thinking about it. Well, All I can think of is, what did I do this time? that they'll nail me for? I never do anything to defy my parents' trust and yet they keep survalance on me like a criminal and critique every little "wrong" thing they think I did...which, btw, hasn't been anything! I am not saying I am perfect by any means. I am saying that I have been as good as I can be and I should be trusted enough for them not to worry so much and restrict me cause I already restrict myself for myself.

For all I know, they could be keeping a "nice" surprise, which my family is not good at or has ever really done or they found out something they believe horrible I did, which I can't imagine what but something always comes up, and someone did something crappy to my stuff at home, which occasionally happens. I don't frikkin know and it just pisses me off. Why can't I just get everyone off my back? I am tired of being good and then being set a double standard. If I started bad, then maybe I would get less crap from them. I dunno. I love my parents, but sometimes, I can't understand why they don't trust me. It's hard to be truthful to people who judge your every move, every word and every breath.

don't forget to...
touch the sun

"and it makes you wonder how it would be
if people just stopped and suddenly understood"
-shine

care2.com race for the OCEANS! (July 24, 2002, Tue 10:371m)

Goooood Morning everybody. Well I need to head to campus as soon as I get this done, But before that, I must share that care2.com has started a new race. The race for the pandas is over. Thanks to everyone who participated =). Now they are beginning a Race for the Oceans so please continue showing your support. My current level is

ok, I gotta go. Peace Y'all =)

freshman orientation fair and the mercedes benz cup (July 24, 2002, Tue 12:17pm)

Man, its past midnight and yet I still feel like it's only 9. Anyway, there was another batch of freshman orientation today. We corrupted a few kiddies to get into Psi Chi Psychology honor society org. I also got two more people for my study. Sux I still need one more. I guess I'll just hope I can ask someone in my class or in the lab.

Did I mention that there is this whole Mercedes Benz Cup Tennis Tournament being held here at UCLA? SO all the major tennis champions are here competing including Andre Agassi. Kewl huh? Anywho, there are a whole mess of rich snobs here and they totally blocked my walk way around Pauley Pavillion!!! So annoying!!! Ok so I have to walk all the daym way around the football field parking lot area. Well, at least I got to experience another way around UCLA. Arighty, my roomie is dozing off and she is making me sleepy. I think imma go sleepy time now. Nitey nite y'all. Tc GB

door bell (July 23, 2002, Tue 1:39pm)

Here I am at my desk once more. And if you had any brain whatsoever you would have figured out that I am, once again, procrastinating my paper. Last night I slept at about 2:30am, and about 3:30am for the past 3 days. Don't ask me why.

Yesterday I just finished my final/midterm in 136A. Frankly, the test was fine. Although for all I know my grade could go either way. It all depends of how they grade my experimental design, arguments, and essays. I just hope I didn't make any stupid mistakes.

My groupmate finally gave us our packets after she voluntarily photocopied them without our permission. So basically, I had to deal with errors that I already fixed, but since she photocopied the unedited ones, well yeah everything went retarded. Oh well. Now I have three subjects left for the last study I developed along with my group mates.

Let's see, yesterday I did some photoediting and I had major plans for my page. However, my major plans will be put on hold since I don't have enough time to do them. I know I will have to fix my archives soon. I also have so many new designs and layouts I want to test as well as pictures to post. Oh and you probably noticed that the thumb nails for the photo page are messed up. Well they were working fine the first day I set them up but I guess imagestation has a problem with me linking my own pictures so I will have to, yet again, find another spot to upload my stuff. Any suggestions? e-mail me!

By the way, I will fix those annoying thumbnails soon once I get my paper finished and my data analyzed =).

Arighty then, here are some awesome sites that I just have to share and soon link up in my links page:
john mayer - johm mayer is so awesome...just listen and you will know why.
Jack Johnson then of course our very own Jack Johnson. We can't forget him! Give my homeboy some luv!
Pinoy Life - check the article about Filipinos pretending to be Hawaiian...so sad yet true
Vroom - a fresh punk band I heard of last year. They're pretty good. More indie rock type and a mixture of punk. Watch for them, I gurantee they will get big soon.

P.S.
Our manager made a hole in our kitchen wall!

sunday evening (July 21, 2002, Sun 7:25pm)

Although it's Sunday, I failed to go to church (shame on me I know -_-), but I did do something productive. I did infact study last night and I spent the rest of my day working on ONE page of my site (the stupid picture page). I basically cleaned it up. My eyes kinda hurt now from editing picture sizes and stairing at html and uploading and reverting from site to site to site cause stupid geocities has no more space!!! GRRRR!

Anywho, my roomie isn't back yet, and I haven't continued studying yet (don't worry, I can Ace this thing ^_^) and I am getting dang hungry. I seriously need to go home this weekend and replenish my goods. I am broke as a piggie bank on ice cream day. Well, yeah this is my entry. Nuttin too interestin. I also interviewed a prospective roomie. However, I seriously do not want her to be living inthe same apt as me. She is so daym anal and well, let's just say, I am easy to get along with and I was having a hard time getting a decent smile from her. Oh well, I guess I should go eat or sumthin.

check out my cousin's revamped page MpPinoYinda805 ...a sneak peek while it's not yet vandalized!

eeeehhhhh (July 20, 2002, Sat 11:30pm)

Fine fine, so I haven't studied yet. But hey, I found a really kewl site =) its called clickmomukhamo.com its so hilarious...hehe. oh and I got to that site by clicking on isangmahal.com which I found on Asianavenue.com. See how links work? Oh and the reason why I was looking at those was because I was looking for a way to make the scroll bar on the side of this thing a diff color. But alas I trailled off and never came back =P! Ok I am seriously gonna study now...bye bye! Oh yeah and I got Raven Claw! What's the deal? I answer honestly and try it twice and I still get Raven Claw! Oh well. It's my next fave choice =) As long as I'm not in Slytherin!

Where do YOU belong?

Ok ok, one last thing, I must show this annoyingly funny gif from click mo's site

Ayan, tapos na po!
I thank you!
--bow--

summer time (July 20, 2002, Sat 7:33pm)

Here I am, back again after an oh so very long break of not updating my page. I knew that you guys gave up on me a long time ago (tsk tsk tsk)! You should know better!

Well you are all probably wondering why I haven't updated in sooooo daym long. Well for one, stupid page builder won't work any more and I was too busy to figure out how to put all my stuff on html. Now it is summer. Yes summer. However my work is never done. It is now Saturday and I am here in my apt (yes I actually found a place with decent roomies...thank GOD...seriously thank you) with my other roomie Yumi and the other two are, well, with their families right now. I enrolled in two classes for the summer and I have a midterm/final on monday and a paper due and a presentation (ahhhh the agony!). Luckily I am done data collecting for one, and I have designed the other. All I need to do now is study for my final on Monday and start finishing my paper and conducting my other study. Btw, the class is Social Psych Lab 136A with Dr. Gian Gonzaga. It's not too bad. Almost like 100b all over again but less structured and more time time restrictions (about 6 weeks or so vs 10).

Some of you are probably wondering what's up with the apt life? Well, it's not too bad. Nothing exciting really. We have a 2 bed two bath apt with a fire place and balcony and a swimmingpool (which I have yet to see). We're about 5 mins from campus and it takes me about the same time to get to class. We're pretty much within walking distance everywhere, so it's not too bad. One major thing I miss most about living in the dorms is free cable, internet, the people and of course the ready made food! We have DSL (I AM VERY LUCKY) tho, so it's not that bad. I am getting used to carrying a ton of keys too vs one card key. And, well we don't have cable...which is fine and the dryer here is 25c more expensive (I did laundry today and the stupid washing machine ate my 4 qtrs! daym bazturd!). Out of my sheer boredom and weird spur of the moment figuring out html for this kewl scroll box thingy, I am typing my new and slightly improved news page! YEAH! And soon after this, I will have to get back to studying (I have about 4 chapters to go...which isn't that bad really...I can DOH it!). Now I'm gonna wait for my roomie (Joanna) to get her car from her bro and freak me out with her driving =) (she's headed of to ucsd for medschool inthe fall). Ok well I gots lots more to say, but need to study real bad. So I'll catch ya later people =).

take care and God Bless
hi kc, pauline, brian, onnie and ij =)